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Chapter 27: Am I That Horrible?
As Faith sat in the limo with her friends, many thoughts began swimming in her
mind. The most prominent of all had to be the one she didn't want to think
about. Maybe she had met her prince, but had he met his princess? Was her
destiny to die supposed to help Darren find his real soul mate? The thoughts
kept running through her mind until she finally burst into tears.
Morgan quickly noticed and asked, "Faith, what's the matter? Why are you
crying?"
"Darren doesn't deserve me!" Faith bawled. "I am so wrong for
him! I'm everything a girl isn't supposed to be. I'm a bitch, I'm pushy, I'm
picky, I'm even fucking bi-polar! Why is he still with me? Why does he want to
stay? I've taken a look back at my life with him, and all I see is the horrible
treatment that I've given him. I can't tell you the number of times I've pushed
him away and yelled at him and been a total bitch to him. I don't deserve him.
He's too good for me. He should be with someone else, not me! Why does he want
to be with someone like me? I don't see it. I don't even see why you're still my
friend. I've put you through more hell that anyone else. Why are you still my
friend? Why didn't you ditch me like everyone else?"
"Because unlike many people, I saw the good in you," Morgan softly
replied as she wrapped her arms around Faith's shoulders. "I saw what
Darren saw, something so deep inside that it would probably be overlooked by
everyone else. I know you, I know you're heart. Yeah, you've been shitty with me
quite a few times, and you have bitched at me for some pretty stupid reasons,
but you always come around and say you're sorry even if you weren't wrong in the
first place. You've always been the forgiving type, unless someone really pushed
your buttons, like Spaz. But even nine months after that scuffle, I could see
that you really sincere when you said you wanted to hear her side of the story
and that you still wanted to be her friend.
"Look, Faith. Many people see you as rude, uninviting, bitchy, stuck up,
and pretty much whatever other negative word there is in the dictionary, but to
me you're Faith, the most wonderful person in the world. You've been really good
to me. You let me stay at your place when my parents divorced and I was having a
really hard time adjusting. You gave me money whenever I needed it, which was
quite a few times, and never asked for payback. You took really good care of me
whenever someone was bothering me. I still can't believe, to this day, you
actually beat up that guy junior year just because he was calling me short. I
know nobody in his or her right mind would have done that, but you were a whole
different story. You've always been one of those people who never took the
beaten path. You're unconventional in every way, and that's the cool thing about
you.
"I've always looked up to you even though you did a few things that were
pretty crazy. I remember the drug and alcohol thing. That was pretty tough to
handle, but I could see that you were actually getting your life back together
after you fell in love with Darren. I knew you'd clean up your act when
something dramatic happened in your life, I just wasn't expecting it to be a
baby.
"You know what, now that we're on that topic, I've got a few more things to
add to that list of ways that you're wonderful. You're a great mother. You're up
the second Hope starts to cry, ready to give her a bottle or rock her back to
sleep. I've never met anyone who was able to manage a child and a terminal
disease like you. You're like super woman, ready to fight anything. And I think
it's wonderful that you're trying to record every little detail of your life
just so Hope can see what you were like. It'll give her something to hold on to
when she grows up. She'll remember her mom even though she never met her. I
don't know of anyone else who is willing to dedicate so much time to such a
lucrative project. You really are wonder woman.
"I don't care about what other people think of you. To me, you're the most
wonderful person in the world. We're all human, we all make mistakes, but you
take those mistakes and learn from them, then make a record just so your
daughter doesn't make them also. You're teaching her things that she would
otherwise never learn.
"Faith, I love you to death, and I know that Darren does also. We've both
seen a really rare side of you that you don't let many see. We've seen your soft
and vulnerable side. That's why Darren is marrying you and not some other chick.
He knows you have a really big heart under that tough girl image that you try to
show everyone. That's why he's still around, unlike your other boyfriends. He
sees all of you, and loves all of you. Don't be discouraged by the way you've
treated him in the past. He's still with you even though you've been a bitch to
him, and he will be until the end."
"That's right," Tracy stepped in. "It takes a lot to piss him
off, but no matter what, he still comes back."
"Yeah, he can take a lot of shit, and I should know. I've put him through
enough," Leonie added. "I've made him do quite a few interviews even
though he was sick or not feeling well, and he never complained."
"See, you're not the horrible person that you think you are. Everybody else
in this limo knows it. We're all still your friends. We don't plan on going
anywhere. We love you, Faith," Morgan finished.
"Oh, you guys!" Faith started to cry again as she pulled everyone in
for a group hug. "Thanks for making me feel better. I was so close to
calling off the wedding again."
"Good thing we stopped you before this turned into 'The Wedding Planner.'
That would have been a disaster," Morgan replied. "Now come here so I
can clean you up before you get out of this limo. You don't wanna look like shit
going down the isle, do you?"
"No, I don't," Faith laughed as she leaned closer to her friend so she
could redo her face.
"So, you feeling better now?" Leonie asked.
"Yeah, much." Faith sighed, "Too bad I didn't catch that on tape.
It was the best speech I'd ever heard. Let's just hope it wasn't your speech for
the reception."
The others laughed at her joke. "No, it wasn't. I've got a much better one
for the reception," Morgan replied. "That one goes something along the
lines of stupid things you've done and said in your life."
"Oh, no! Don't you dare!" Faith almost yelled.
"Gotcha!" Morgan hollered back.
"Oh, you little shit!" Faith began to giggle.
"Sit still, I'm not finished working on your makeup yet! Do you really
wanna look like a clown when you get out of this limo?"
"Hell no! This is my wedding day! I'm supposed to look pretty."
"Yeah, you and the rest of us, honey."
Faith stuck out her tongue as the others began to laugh.
"Hey, do you guys have a song yet?" Leonie asked suddenly.
Faith thought for a moment. "Come to think of it, I don't know. I think it
might be something by Sinatra, but I just don't know. We'll see at the
reception."
"I wonder if he has something planned for that. It seems like he's always
got something up his sleeve," Tracy said.
"What do you mean by that?" Faith asked.
"Well, when he got married to Colby, he didn't have much, but he did write
her a song and sang it to her during the reception," Tracy answered.
"Let me guess, 'Truly Madly Deeply?'"
"Yeah. Is it that obvious?"
"Yeah, it is. It's, like, the sweetest song in the world. How could it not
have been written for a wedding?"
"So, what do you think he's got planned for today?" Morgan asked when
she finished Faith's makeup.
"Hey, I might know a lot about Darren, but I don't know this," Tracy
retorted.
"Well, girls. We'll continue this discussion later. The limo has arrived at
its destination. Let's get this wedding started," Leonie said when the
driver stopped.
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