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“I came home tonight feeling like shit. I couldn’t believe that another one
of my friends died. Oh, the irony. A drunk driver. I couldn’t believe it. If
anything, I thought she would have been the drunken one, but I guess I was
wrong. Poor Karl, I wonder how he’s taken it. I never really knew if he liked
her or not. He probably did considering he was the one who took her upstairs to
her room and cleaned her up after our fight. (That’s what Morgan told me.)
“I wanna see the tape that I made for Becky. But if I do, I’ll probably try
to kill myself again. I’d better hold off until later on in my life to see
that video again. Right now I need to start focusing on the other video I’m
trying to finish, the summer video. I want to finish it before I die.
“Did I manage to tell you that I’m dying in my last little blurb? Yeah,
well, I am. I have a brain tumor that started growing again. I first had it when
I was ten, way back in fifth grade. I had the last tumor removed with surgery,
but this time, I was risking losing my baby, and I wasn’t about to do that.
So, here I am, stuck with a terminal illness that’s slowly eating away my
life. The doctor said I had about six months left. Wow, six months. That’s
such a short time. But I don’t think of it that way. I’ve lived my life the
way I wanted to live it. I experienced everything that I wanted to experience. I
even fell in love, something that I wasn’t expecting at all.
“Looking back, I realized that taking that road trip was probably the best
decision I ever made. I experienced so much in that short span of time. I met my
idol, which was probably the highest point of my life. I wonder what Darren’s
doing right now? I wonder where he is. I wonder if he’ll ever get a chance to
see his daughter. I pray every day that she goes to a loving family when I’m
gone.
“Okay, I’ve had enough of this. I need to stop before I start sobbing like a
maniac. That’s the last thing I need.”
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